Classic Hilton's

I love fall! Summer is hot. August is consumed with school starting. September is all about getting into the swing of things - it can start cooling down or it can swelter. It's kind of a toss up. But October, ahh, October! Consistently cooler weather, reds and oranges and browns (all very good colors for me!), and the official beginning to the holiday season! Every weekend is booked - not with one activity, but with several! More detailed posts to come on some of our favorite events, but here are some highlights. back yard camp out - yes please! I love how they manage to look so grown up, yet still so beautifully innocent at the same time! We play outside a lot in the cooler weather. a pumpkin IN the pumpkin patch! That's Alfalfa sitting in the middle there.  the baby in the puppy pen, the puppy in the bassinet...hmmm, something is not quite right here!

Madilyn Rae 3 months and 2 weeks approximately 9lbs 1oz, 21 inches Here she is...her official 3 month photo! (I can't believe I actually got a smile - and that she fell asleep a few minutes later!!)   So, I plugged Madi's weight and age into my little percentile chart, and it seems she is in the lowest 5th percentile. Honestly I don't know what this means except that she is small. Brooklyn at this age was already chunking out at a healthy 13 lbs. I don't remember how big Grayson was (and I don't feel like looking it up) but you can see in pictures he was rounding out nicely as well.  I wouldn't say I'm worried, but there is a little voice in the back of my head (yes, Mom, it's your voice!) keeping this at the forefront of my mind, so I'll bring it up at our next appointment. You do seem to be hitting all the age appropriate milestones, so I'm really not worried. In the meantime, Miss Madikins, I enjoy your small stature! You are

The following entry may seem scatter brained and a little like an emotional roller coaster as I am sorting through my feelings of discouragement, pride, gratitude, and determination. I went to bed last night in pain. I woke up this morning in pain. Throughout the day if I do anything in the same position for too long, I find myself stiff and struggling to change. After Madi, I lost the pregnancy weight, but since then have only been able to maintain. I have increased my activity level so that I am doing something  every day, whether that is a yoga dvd, walking the kids to the park, or even cleaning something in the house. We are eating 90% of our meals at home, and I am making an effort to include fruits and vegetables at every meal, limit carbs, and chose lean proteins. Sweets and junk food still exist and do make their way into our kitchen, but I am trying to limit them as well.  I just don't feel good. I feel like my body is broken. I don't like the way I look or feel in