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In Which I Am Frustrated

Truth be told, I am frustrated. There is a great deal of tension in my spirit right now.  A huge gap between what I want my life to look like and what it actually looks like.  At this moment, I do not feel like a woman capable of raising three children, let alone homeschooling one of them! I am overwhelmed to the point that nearly every conversation with my husband (who is going through his own set of growing pains) ends in tears. 


Grow - ing - Pains!! I want some Tylenol. 


I know we (the Hilton clan) are on the brink of some major life changes. I know, from the emotional upheaval caused by our Titanic experience, that God has some wonderful plans to use us for His glory. I know that when we come out the other side of all this we will look more like Jesus and love more like Jesus and be useful to Him in building the kingdom. 


But right now...big sigh.

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